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[cheekbones3]

I wake from another dream where I get back together with C.

I just think, just because it was the "right decision" eighteen months ago to finish things, that's not always going to be the case is it? My own inability to talk about things (the reason I made that decision) has been cast into sharp focus in the intervening time - I've certainly learnt the lessons I was having problems with. Some of you may have heard about these things over the past year or so.

I just wish I knew now what to do, if at all anything. Should I just look forwards and put it down to experience, or should I go and chase my dreams, even if it makes things awkward for C? Frankly, I've no idea what she thinks about things - we don't really tlak these days, which is even more disappointing, since we got on so well.

Somebody out there can tell me what to do. Help!

I even foresook my lie in to write this...

Comments

[bunnyphone.livejournal.com]

I'm always wary of looking back rather than forwards. There's always the chance of you thinking "if I was who I am now back then things might have been different or I would have done things differently", but this doesnt allow for how other people may have changed in the meantime. Unfortunately things are rarely the same when you try to have another go at them, which I think is rather unfair of life:)
There is also the chance that if things hadn't gone the way they have for one reason it may well have happened for another.

Perhaps I'm over cautious and maybe it's just because i'm reasonably sensitive but I am inclined to be very careful with other peoples feelings as well as my own.
Im definitely one for being quite happy to give these things a good go if they occur naturally but would be unsure about engineering it unless I really knew what I was doing.

Maybe it would be an idea to try to nurture a friendship first? It would be less pressure and less scary at least:O)

So long as you do what makes you happy thats all that matters anyways.

*Hugs*
L