Be your fucking self you tit!

Why am I so paranoid about sending the right messages to people? I meet a new girl-we chat, I'd like to see them again just because they're nice-something may happen, something may not, but all in all it's fun-but I'm scared of "saying the wrong thing", or maybe just scaring the person away, when I should just settle the fuck down and get on with it. If they run away so be it. I just end up sounding ridiculously equivocal, and there's rarely any need for that, except when occasionally put under the microscope of guilt...
I suppose I've always been scared of treading on toes, partly due to my upbringing, and partly due to the fact that I'm so bloody clumsy (literally, figuratively and verbally!). I really need to stop being all things to all people, and just get on with being myself, and bollocks to it if I occasionally piss people off. I almost never mean to! If people want to take offence to me, they generally do no matter what I do. There are always people that clash with eachother's vibes. 'Tis the way of the world...
32 days to go.