Be your fucking self you tit!

[cheekbones3]

Why am I so paranoid about sending the right messages to people? I meet a new girl-we chat, I'd like to see them again just because they're nice-something may happen, something may not, but all in all it's fun-but I'm scared of "saying the wrong thing", or maybe just scaring the person away, when I should just settle the fuck down and get on with it. If they run away so be it. I just end up sounding ridiculously equivocal, and there's rarely any need for that, except when occasionally put under the microscope of guilt...
I suppose I've always been scared of treading on toes, partly due to my upbringing, and partly due to the fact that I'm so bloody clumsy (literally, figuratively and verbally!). I really need to stop being all things to all people, and just get on with being myself, and bollocks to it if I occasionally piss people off. I almost never mean to! If people want to take offence to me, they generally do no matter what I do. There are always people that clash with eachother's vibes. 'Tis the way of the world...
32 days to go.

Comments

[wildjasmine.livejournal.com]

Stop beating yourself up, what you do is perfectly natural, us girls do exactly the same, we all want to make a good impression, especially on a first meeting!
Yeah we can all piss people off no matter how nice we try to be but hey thats their problem you cant please everyone..

At the end of the day if the girl runs away then it obviously wasnt meant to be, when it is it'll work and you'll both be trying to be overly nice and make a good impression on each other - for a while until you settle and are comfie with each other..

Dont worry so much - things will happen ...whats happening in 32 days btw what have I missed??

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[cheekbones3.livejournal.com]

that's when I escape from the office!